Self - Improvement : A Work in Progress

After years of wanting something that I never fully went after, I'm turning over a new leaf.  It's time that I took time for myself, to learn, read, and do what I want to. In the past, I have spoken about my goal to start waking up at 5am, I was never able to stick with it. I have once again realized that you dont' just get better at things by wanting to be better, you have to make the conscious decision, and take steps toward self-improvement. In my downtime, I have been listening to podcasts about Love, Happiness, Depression, Money Decisions, Project Management, all things that I would like to learn more about. And it has been extremely inspirational. I think I have failed in the past because it was too drastic of a change, I went from staying up till 1am, to trying to get myself to bed at 9. It didn't work. But this time, this time is different. I have been going to sleep early for almost a year now, because my fiancé, must wake up at 3/4am every day for work. I saw ...

Hey everyone, Wow, things have been crazy for me the past few years. I have been keeping a secret from many of you since October 2019. And I think that I am now ready to tell you guys what has been going on in my life. Please don't be offended if you're one of the many who are finding out from this post. I only told a few close people, or told people when I felt that it was necessary. My whole life I've been getting migraines, but around 2013 they came almost daily. I was even brought to the ER once because I was in so much pain that I couldn't walk or open my eyes. My migraines just got worse from there. I had headaches so frequently, that I began to feel bad for missing out on things.  I even started to feel like my family and friends thought I was lying when I told them I had a headache. I'm sure they didn't, but I felt like the girl who cried wolf, minus the lying part, if that makes sense.  In October of 2019, I started to experience some interesting things...

The year 2018 was not a good year for me. Two things that will send someone into a crippling depression happened to me... As I am still healing from this most recent one, I don't want to go into much detail. But for the rest of this post to make sense you'll need to know that Vincent and I are no longer together, after 8 years.. As time goes by I expect I will be able to open up about it. The past few years I have been stagnant. I still started a Master's program and got a new job as a manager, but I was just existing. I wasn't actually living my life. At the beginning of October I started a 6 week fitness challenge at a CrossFit gym in town. I lost 15 pounds and began to love myself again. But I still wasn't happy. It took the earth shattering, heart breaking, event to make me realize that I needed to do something about the way I have been living. I was one of those people who got up, went to work, came home and sat on the couch watching TV and waiting for the ...

Thursday was NOT a good day for me. It was the one day of the week that I get to work out with my trainer. Since we haven't measured me in awhile, we decided it was time to see my progress. Now before I get into that, I knew it wasn't going to be good, I have been traveling a lot this summer and eating...not so great. Vincent and I haven't been making many meals either because we have been in the process of house hunting, packing and moving. Which by the way, we start moving this Sunday! Anyway, I warned my trainer before the actual measurements that it wasn't going to be good. And it wasn't. Just as I had expected, I had gained a few inches around just about every part of my body and a whomping 4 pounds. Which almost put me back to where I started in January. BUT There was a slight silver lining. I had gained more muscle. So not all of the weight I gained was fat. Thank goodness. I honestly was really upset by this, and my trainer could tell. So h...

Hey everyone! It's been a very long time since I've written on here. This year so many things have changed! Vincent moved in with me at the end of December 2016, it has been going super great! I love waking up to him every morning (except when I work graves of course). I can't believe its been 8 months since we made that giant leap in our relationship, things have been moving along so smoothly. At the end of February I became a Mary Kay Independent Beauty Consultant! Let me tell you, I was so nervous at first. The starter kit was $100 and it came with over $400 worth of product in it, so NO BRAINER, I signed up. I signed up wondering if I could make any money in the business of skin care and cosmetics, and I soon found out I could when at my first party I sold over $300 of product! Quickly I decided to invest in my business and milk it for all that I could, honestly, it hasn't been unrewarding. I've had so much personal growth, it's insane. I beg...

Warning : There is rambling. We are asked the same question over and over again while we become adults: When we are younger we say things like: Race car driver and Magician! Little do we know that our ideas on what we want to be in the future rarely stick. When I was a child I wanted to be a teacher, I think it was because I loved school and I respected my teachers, I looked up to them.  But as time went on, school wasn't so much fun anymore, it was more about discipline and our times tables. (You know, the hard stuff). I didn't like my teachers as much as I used to, so my dream of being a teacher changed pretty quickly. Of course, as I got older my dream job kept changing, it wasn't until my 13th birthday that I found the thing that stuck, Photography. My step dad bought me a Canon (I know, I know, gross) for my birthday. I took so many pictures!! And I was sure that photography was my thing, no one else's. ...

Good afternoon! Sorry I didn't write yesterday about my "secret". What I wanted to tell you yesterday didn't end up happening. BUT! It should be happening soon so I will tell you as soon as it does happen, blogger's promise. I don't think bloggers promise is a thing, but we will make it a thing! Lately I've been hearing from some friends that you can't comment, and that the site won't let you. Today, I'm going to tell you how to comment step-by-step with pictures. First you want to obviously be on the post that you wish to comment on.  The picture right below this is what the comment box looks like. It will be a little different for you because you're not the admin of this blog. :) You want to click on the drop down menu where it says "Comment as:" Like this: Then click the option that says "Name/URL". If you want to be Anonymous, you can, but I prefer to know who I'm talking to. It will the...