I'm writing tonight's post to the song 'Life in Technicolor II' By Coldplay.
I forgot how much I enjoy Coldplay. They can put me in such a relaxed mood.
Almost perfect for writing. I've had a pretty bland day. I got up around 11am, which is way later than I wanted to get up..
I used my color chart, which told me I should wear lavender on Mondays.. It helps me get dressed faster in the morning ha.
Anyway, I took my finals today.. It went bad for accounting, but I didn't really expect any different. Cheers to taking that class a third time! I'm not stupid I swear. I just lacked conviction lately. Which will change. My math final went pretty well..Matching graphs to equations is my downfall so I'm sure I missed a few points there, I passed the class though!
When I got home I realized that I had the rest of my day to myself, some people love that feeling, nothing to do.
I'm not like others, I prefer to be busy, keeps my mind off things. One of my friends, whose name shall go unmentioned, came up with an interesting theory. Maybe I don't like being alone or left with nothing to do because I don't like my thoughts, or myself. Who knows?
I think that's why I wanted to start writing on here again, it might help me. Or help anyone else that is interested. Hey, if my dysfunctional life helps even one person, that makes it worth it, even if that one person isn't me.
I think everyone is uncomfortable with themselves to some extent right? It can't just be me.
Oh yes, 'Yellow' I love this song. My boyfriend of four years and one of his friends are going to cover it. Just because I suggested it. My boyfriend doesn't even like Coldplay. He juts takes my thoughts and ideas into consideration, I love that man.
He makes everything worth it. I go through what I go through everyday just so I can appear strong for him. I don't want him to think that giving up on dreams, just because they didn't go as planned, is a good idea.
I think that's why we work so well for each other, we try everyday to make each other strive for greatness, whether its apparent or not.
The fact that he is here for me, makes me want to succeed in everything I try. In fact, in high school, I tried my hardest on everything I did, just so I could beat even one of his scores. It never happened, but it made me try.
Oh man, this still angers me. But for our senior papers we had to watch a documentary and write a 6 page paper on it. I chose something I was and still am very passionate about, (I'm sure I'll blog about it soon) and I worked on it for about 5 hours every day for weeks! I wrote my little heart out, and he chose something he knew would be easy to write about, and wrote the paper in about two days. He still got a better grade than me. I believe it was by like one or two points but it still kills me to this day.
Even trying my hardest, I still couldn't beat him. Sure it sounds like we have a sort of competition, but I think its healthy, and it makes me try harder. It may seem dysfunctional to an outsider but I promise its not. It works for us.
Anyway, enough of that lovey dovey stuff. My uncle will be out here tomorrow! I'm so excited, I haven't seen him in two years. He came out here my freshman year of college and spent a few days with me. He is an amazing man.
He graduated with a degree in Chemistry and he is even published! He is a very successful man and gives me a lot of hope. He grew up in a normal family (as normal as my moms family possibly could have been) but what I mean is he didn't have any connections, and he still became successful.
I wanted to graduate with a degree in chemistry as well, I freaking love it. Its the only thing that just makes perfect sense to me.
But my mother pointed out something to me, my uncle may have graduated with a degree in chemistry, but he doesn't do anything with it today. I don't believe his job actually entails any chemistry.
Who knows, maybe I'll make more money and come back to school for a degree in chemistry. That's also what I say about cinematography though. Seems like I'm already starting to have regrets in my life choices.. I'm only studying marketing so I will have a job for life.
If it wasn't for my fear of being broke, I would be studying Photography, which in the end is my true passion.
I believe that's enough for the day. I have another quote for you guys to think about.
At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent.
I forgot how much I enjoy Coldplay. They can put me in such a relaxed mood.
Almost perfect for writing. I've had a pretty bland day. I got up around 11am, which is way later than I wanted to get up..
I used my color chart, which told me I should wear lavender on Mondays.. It helps me get dressed faster in the morning ha.
Anyway, I took my finals today.. It went bad for accounting, but I didn't really expect any different. Cheers to taking that class a third time! I'm not stupid I swear. I just lacked conviction lately. Which will change. My math final went pretty well..Matching graphs to equations is my downfall so I'm sure I missed a few points there, I passed the class though!
When I got home I realized that I had the rest of my day to myself, some people love that feeling, nothing to do.
I'm not like others, I prefer to be busy, keeps my mind off things. One of my friends, whose name shall go unmentioned, came up with an interesting theory. Maybe I don't like being alone or left with nothing to do because I don't like my thoughts, or myself. Who knows?
I think that's why I wanted to start writing on here again, it might help me. Or help anyone else that is interested. Hey, if my dysfunctional life helps even one person, that makes it worth it, even if that one person isn't me.
I think everyone is uncomfortable with themselves to some extent right? It can't just be me.
Oh yes, 'Yellow' I love this song. My boyfriend of four years and one of his friends are going to cover it. Just because I suggested it. My boyfriend doesn't even like Coldplay. He juts takes my thoughts and ideas into consideration, I love that man.
He makes everything worth it. I go through what I go through everyday just so I can appear strong for him. I don't want him to think that giving up on dreams, just because they didn't go as planned, is a good idea.
I think that's why we work so well for each other, we try everyday to make each other strive for greatness, whether its apparent or not.
The fact that he is here for me, makes me want to succeed in everything I try. In fact, in high school, I tried my hardest on everything I did, just so I could beat even one of his scores. It never happened, but it made me try.
Oh man, this still angers me. But for our senior papers we had to watch a documentary and write a 6 page paper on it. I chose something I was and still am very passionate about, (I'm sure I'll blog about it soon) and I worked on it for about 5 hours every day for weeks! I wrote my little heart out, and he chose something he knew would be easy to write about, and wrote the paper in about two days. He still got a better grade than me. I believe it was by like one or two points but it still kills me to this day.
Even trying my hardest, I still couldn't beat him. Sure it sounds like we have a sort of competition, but I think its healthy, and it makes me try harder. It may seem dysfunctional to an outsider but I promise its not. It works for us.
Anyway, enough of that lovey dovey stuff. My uncle will be out here tomorrow! I'm so excited, I haven't seen him in two years. He came out here my freshman year of college and spent a few days with me. He is an amazing man.
He graduated with a degree in Chemistry and he is even published! He is a very successful man and gives me a lot of hope. He grew up in a normal family (as normal as my moms family possibly could have been) but what I mean is he didn't have any connections, and he still became successful.
I wanted to graduate with a degree in chemistry as well, I freaking love it. Its the only thing that just makes perfect sense to me.
But my mother pointed out something to me, my uncle may have graduated with a degree in chemistry, but he doesn't do anything with it today. I don't believe his job actually entails any chemistry.
Who knows, maybe I'll make more money and come back to school for a degree in chemistry. That's also what I say about cinematography though. Seems like I'm already starting to have regrets in my life choices.. I'm only studying marketing so I will have a job for life.
If it wasn't for my fear of being broke, I would be studying Photography, which in the end is my true passion.
I believe that's enough for the day. I have another quote for you guys to think about.
At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent.
This post is sad! I feel like you are settling on Marketing? I hope this isn't true. You are not dysfunctional and trust me Uncle Mikes family was dysfunctional (trust me!).
ReplyDeleteIt does have an overall blue feeling to it, I'd admit. I am most definitely settling in marketing. But I think I'll be better off this way? I'm not sure, I'm just following my mothers wisdom.
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